Glitch of Time...

Tears dripped though my eyes as if an outlet has been split opened and my hands gave assistance for the body fluid to spread all over my cheeks… yuck boys cry or what???... I questioned myself… but that didn’t stop me from closing the shutter for fluid control, looked as if I was enjoying it… I let loose all the hard stuffs that I was holding deep inside for such a long time… Why the hell did you do that at the first place??? Maybe I really wanted to act strong and so ballooned all inside me…

Things never used to come to me just like that, right from my childhood I was to fight for it and need to catch my breath to get even the simplest of the thing from this world… and when I am at the least of its need, I used to get showered with blessings… but who cares, I have already lost the interest for that… Yes that is how things go around in this world… But the good old boy who used to boast about himself for his innocence lost his way… my adaptability put me in to such a situation in life where I don’t care about anything anymore… Is that a mistake or was I supposed to sustain my innocence by taking the beating from the world around me???… Damage was done, but my friends used to console me that I am going through a different phase of life… Even I think it is phase of life, get over it…

I am not counting myself as an absolute looser in life. I have gained many a things, may be more that what I had expected out of time… but still things which I have lost accounted more than what I have gained… How do you calculate that??? I achieved more of a materialistic world and lost myself from the hearts of my dearest ones and here comes the hitch, the change which has come over me in years doesn’t bring me the pain of losing them all… I move forward giving them more than a sting, as if I m not bothered about things happening around me…

Bad things happen to every individual in this world, but is it required to act as if you are the
worst hit among them… To be frank, I lost faith… losing faith??? Is that what you should be doing when you are forced to step back in a couple of instances??? I have not lost faith in life… I have lost faith in building a relationship… so what do u expect??? Some would come to lend you a hand and take you back to the world from where you come from??? I don’t know but I really expect something like that to happen… I don’t want to take a chance any more…

I am not a spoilt brat, deep inside I can hear the feeble voice of my Innocence trying to get my attention, but looks like I am pushing him back… who cares if I am good or bad… no one has time to judge on others… Hope the day comes when someone joins hands with me to fight on my side against all odds for eternity… I wish you the very best, but don’t lose the one inside you… even though you ll be having a tough time, a peaceful sleep is assured…